Monday, September 20, 2010

Who is Fooling Who?

So here's the deal.....I had no significant weight loss on my weigh in last Friday.  Truthfully this was a disappointment but not a surprise. The great thing about the BodyBugg is... the numbers don't lie.  Last week I did NOT make my numbers.  My goal is to have a deficit of at least 1000 calories EVERYDAY!!  I ate crazy and was not hitting it at the gym like I should have.  So that fact that I had no significant weight loss couldn't have been a surprise.... I mean who am I trying to fool?  Who am I cheating???

My epiphany about my "failure" came to my as I walked into the kitchen and noticed a dirt pile from sweeping the floor - 20 mins before, then in my office there were papers that were sorted but never filed, emails were started but never sent, my clothes were washed -- 2 days ago and thus had mildewed.  The stench of my supposed to be clean clothes was a reminder of the funk that my nasty habit of not finishing things leaves in my life.  How can I strive for my best and leave soooooo many things undone.  Yes, I'm ADD also known as a "global thinker" but when will I make the necessary changes to move into greatness in all areas???

The battle with my weight loss is no different.  It is about being consistent and staying in it for the long haul. I thank you all for your comments, feedback and ultimately holding me responsible. This week I am committing to stay the course, make my numbers, log my food and put in my sweat at the gym.  I owe it to myself.   As Anderson Cooper says.. you're keeping me honest.  But after all who am I really fooling anyway???

Friday, September 10, 2010

I'm Just Not That Girl!

Ive always said that "I'm just not that girl"... not the girl who counts calories, not the girl to  deny myself the extra treat in the name of being skinny, not the girl that takes a class at the gym then goes and puts in a few miles on the treadmill... NOPE that's just not me.  No! I'm the girl that has slowly crept up to a size 16, the girl that is no longer comfortable in my bathing suit, the girl that HATES to see pictures of myself.  But that does not feel like ME either....

In many ways I feel like I am in the midst of an identity crisis!  My old way of life is no longer working for me.  The proof is in the pudding or perhaps more appropriately I should say the proof is in the pooch in my tummy.  As a result, I have had to create my own paradigm shift.  No, I don't want to be the calorie obsessed gym rat that can't find joy in life for fear of gaining a pound, but neither do I want to be the heavy girl that is steadily gaining and is unhappy her skin.  Surely there has to be a balance.  Surely I can find a happy medium somehow. 

This journey of Getting-to-10 is about finding and living that balance.  Today is my weekly weigh in and I lost 1.6 pounds.  I didn't get to workout everyday as I would have liked. I enjoyed Labor Day festivities that included lots of eating but I was still able to lose weight.  Why?  Because I was mindful about my choices.  No matter what your current status is, we are where we are in life because of the choices that we have made.  Don't like where you are??? Start today making different choices.  If nothing changes... nothing changes.  Maybe "that girl" knows that it is better to make good choices on the front end then to lament the results on the back end.  In some ways maybe that is just the girl that I want to be!!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

On-ward and Down-ward!?!?!?

Well Yeah... I couldn't say "On-ward and Upward-" when I'm trying to go down in size.  LOL!!!

The holiday weekend was interesting.  Let's just say I enjoyed my food!  I didn't pigout but neither did I really count calories either.  It began with cheesecake on Saturday, a barbecue on Sunday (along with a french toast breakfast) and leftovers on Monday!  Somehow on Monday I was still able to eek out a small deficit. I tried to play a game of Ultimate Frisbee for my Sunday-Slimdown activity but we couldn't get enough people to play.  I was really counting on that to counter alllllll my eating!  Lesson learned: have a backup plan!

Today, was kinda rough too.  Emotionally I have been struggling and not feeling very motivated to workout.  However, I ate very sensibly and I did go to a dance class tonight at the gym.  From the time class started until now I have burned 574 calories...  Now here is another thing my nifty little BodyBugg has taught me.  The benefit of working out in the morning is that you continue to burn calories well after your workout.  For an example.  My class ended about an hour ago yet I'm still burning about 6.2 calories per min.  This is super cool to know.  It also stands to reason that you can get more bang for your buck working out in the morning.  

Hopefully, this week I can maintain my goal of losing 2lbs per week. If not, what I realize that this is not about a day, a weekend or a month it is all about the journey.  They journey toward my ideal life.... my ideal size  The journey of Getting-to-10!